Showers of revelation!

I have the most ear splitting headache this morning, we will see how this post goes....
(My children NEED to get out of this house! BJ has the car from now on in case I go into labor...good idea, but it sure leaves me feeling like we can't get out!)

Yesterday I wrote about how I woke up and had some personal revelation about some things I had been worrying about and praying about the night before.  Well, I thought that was pretty awesome, and figured that that filled my personal revelation quota for the day. NOT SO! ALL DAY LONG I had promptings from the spirit about what to do for JANE'S schooling this coming year(and Denny and Alice's as well;).  I think I was on the internet for five hours straight(well, with tiny kid interruptions throughout...silly people need to eat or something!:). 

I thought we had made our decision about what kind of schooling to do for Jane, but I hadn't really felt a spiritual confirmation about it yet.  In fact, I felt pretty cold about it, but logically it felt good.  Sometimes you just need to make a decision and act on it before Heavenly Father will tell you if He thinks you are on the right path. So that is what we were banking on...

Yesterday I wasn't even thinking about Jane's schooling(except that we needed to make sure the rest of her paperwork was in).  I was mostly still on a high about MY school plans.:)  And I was also thinking a lot about the book BJ and I have been reading at night...which made me think about the author and how much I love Dorothy L. Sayers as a person.  Which led me to look her up for the millionth time on Wikipedia.  WHICH led me to this AMAZING essay on education that she wrote. THE LOST TOOLS OF LEARNING. AMAZING article, and so worth the read!:)

ANYWAYS, THAT article led me to think about some other things, which led me to think about what my goals are for my childrens' educations. The program we were signing Jane up for just didn't seem to fit exactly. SO, thus the next five hours of serious research and internal reflection on what the heck I wanted to give my children as far as a learning experience in this life.  I really want them prepared for university of course, but I want more than that.  I want them to be people of strong character and mind.  I want them to be positive, proactive, problem solvers.  I want them to have a liberal arts education.<----This has always been what I consider the best education.  A broad spectrum, but with purpose of educating the mind towards truth and beauty and proactiveness in the world.  I want religion to be a part of my childrens' education-a really unpopular thought at the moment for most of the world, but something I feel is important.  Christian values. SO IMPORTANT. 

Sufficeth to say I have found a new program I love.  I can't explain why I chose this one over lots of others in a really convincing, logical argument, but I do know that when I look at the curriculum the spirit tells me that this is what MY children need to prepare them for their own unique missions in life.:)  That is important to me.  I really believe we are all here for a unique purpose, and our education can have a huge and vital role in preparing us for that mission.:)

So, I thought, WOW! LOT'S of revelation today! I am full!

AND THEN MORE CAME....this time to BJ.

He was doing some super late night shopping(yeah, ran out of chocolate cereal and milk AGAIN), and in the middle of some random thought the Lord stopped him in his tracks and started telling him a very specific list of things to do.  It was incredible! Some of it was too technical for me to understand, but the gist was that Heavenly Father gave BJ a to-do list to set up the internet marketing business he has been wanting to set up for the last while.  BIG STEP!  He isn't going to quit his current job or anything(yet;)), but it was a really exciting late night as everything he needed fell into place to get things started.

A WHOLE DAY OF PERSONAL REVELATION FOR THE BJHAMAKERS!!!

I told BJ that I was so excited about the future, but so confused about why this all happened in one day.  I hadn't felt like I was doing anything out of the ordinary, like spiritual wise.  I had been trying harder to read the scriptures daily and just really get through the day without too much craziness, but nothing big.
I read an article the other day about how we confuse perfection with worthiness, and I think I do that sometimes.  You don't have to be perfect for God to bless you.  Just doing your best.:)

Heavenly Father loves us so much.  He is right there waiting to bless us in overflowing blessing ways.:)  Life has been a really ginormous struggle for our family in the last 7 years, and it feels so weird to start feeling like good things are starting to happen really consistently.  It is scary a bit.  Is Clair allowed to live her dreams? I know other people can and do, but can *I*?  Is that OK?  Can I live the life I have dreamt of for FOREVER with my family? 

Anyways, it was the craziest day yesterday, and it was AWESOME.  It used to be that we were holding on for dear life cause life was horrible, now it feels like Heavenly Father is starting to pick up the pace in the other direction and we are holding on for dear life cause life is awesome and crazy and wonderful!!!

Whatever your circumstances, I hope your Wednesday is blessed and full of hope for the future!  Heavenly Father has a plan for you, you know.:)  Sometimes it takes a long time for it to be revealed, and even then, sometimes it is revealed only in bits at a time, but there IS a plan for you, and your future is more glorious than you could know.:)