two kinds of tired

In the words of the Fab Four, "I'M SO TIRED"

In my experience all kinds of tired fall into one of two categories:

the kind you should FIX and the kind you should RESPECT.

(I feel that way about illness too actually)

The first kind of "tired" that you should FIX are things like chronic fatigue, insomnia, etc. You know SLEEP problems and ENERGY problems. I have for sure had my struggles with these for....like my WHOLE LIFE.  This kind of tired super stinks TO THE MAX.  I hate it. I hate not having energy to take care of myself or my family, and I have undergone some super serious life changes to start to fix this energy crisis in my body.  AND IT IS GETTING BETTER! Sleep is happening! Energy is happening! Whoohoo!
(PS.If you wanna know more about how I am doing this message me.;)

BUT then there is ....

the second kind of tired.  The kind of tired you should respect. The kind of tired that you experience when you body is rebuilding itself, or in my case, BUILDING ANOTHER HUMAN BEING.  I am tired, and while I do not enjoy being tired all the time(super inconvenient to the max for real), this is one time where I begin to be ok with it on some level.  I am taking as many green foods into my body as I can to help my body not be too stressed with the project it is working on.:)  But still, I am making AN ENTIRE BABY inside me right now, and it takes a lot of my energy!  I have thought, very briefly, about taking extra energy stuff, not talking RED BULL, but you know natural things to boost my energy.  And you know what?  When I pray about it I don't feel good about it. I think it is because this is a natural process going on in my body and I need to respect it.  I do not need to be FIXED right now where fatigue is concerned.  I need to RESPECT this miraculous process happening inside me. I do need to try and feed my body healthy things and get enough rest, but mostly this is a case of letting nature take its natural course.:)

I am really grateful for the intelligence of our creator and for the intelligence of our bodies.  The whole making a person process is awe-inspiring to me. 

I am also grateful I get to take a rest as soon as my hubby is home.<---see I am a real person as well as a deep minded person.;)

SLEEP DOES A BODY GOOD TO THE MAX
true story:)

What is YOUR main feeling today?:)

I sit thinking about AWESOME things to do.  Like make a ginormous fruit salad.  We have everything, cantaloupe, strawberries, bananas, blueberries, etc.  It is going to be SO YUMMY!!! I CAN NOT WAIT!!!  And then I make a move to get up.....and nothing happens.  It feels really good(that may be an overstatement actually) to just sit and do nothing.  Content.  There you go.

Laundry is piling up. TO THE MAX. I love it when all my clothes are put away and so clean and fresh.  Make a move to get up. Yup, content to keep sitting. TO THE MAX.

Make some fresh juice, go water my garden, make a yummy homemade soup(it is kind of cloudy and lovely outside, perfect for homemade soup), paint birdhouses outside with my kids, etc. Yeah, I LOVE all those things.  Make a move to get up....yeah, I got nothing.  Nothing but content to keep sitting down.:)


CONTENT-adjective-in a state of peaceful happiness.

Content. Yup, that's what I got.  Hope you have some too!  Happy Tuesday!!!

Singing on a piano mood:)

(yeah, I totally ripped that off google images.  I would have used a pic of ME singing on a piano, but I can't figure out my scanner/laptop connection....)

I am not really into depressing music or books or movies.  I liked Emo for like a year, but then I got married and was so happy that I just couldn't get into an Emo groove anymore.  BJ and I started calling it the sack cloth and ashes music. Emo is really pathetic sometimes in lyrics and emotion...to the max.

But I DO have like, maybe one or two jazzy, bluesy songs that I still have a yen for that are pretty dang sad.  I think it has to do with the artists' way of singing those songs too.  I REALLY love a sincere interpretation of music. You know, the kind that breaks your heart it is so REAL and authentic. I think I lost a lot of love for Emo because it just started to sound super whiny and SUPER unproactive. Anyways....

Bernadette Peters is one of those amazingly sincere vocal artists.  One of the songs I really love to listen to of hers is I NEVER THOUGHT I'D BREAK. It is pretty sad, but super yummy to sing.  The kind of song where you FOR SURE require a perch on top of a piano for really getting the mood across. 

I have the privilege of being one if not the only girl to have ever sung on top of my high school's piano.  Not really a big, important thing to anyone, but me.:) My teacher, Gorringe(NEVER Mr.Gorringe) was very strict about his piano. I sang CABARET. It was so fun.  I think there was even some stage fog. It was awesome.

Lately I have been singing again.  I was really afraid to sing for a long time, and super insecure. I LOVE TO SING.  I love that form of expression. I love a song that feels SO GOOD in your throat. SO FREE.

Two days ago BJ and I dream planned. One of our favorite dreams is to start a dance hall in Provo in the next few years. Mostly swing, but other dancing too. Argentine tango being my personal request.:). That stuff is dang fun and scandalous! Part of that swing dream is to have MY OWN band. Like a BIG BAND super swing style and awesome.  We could be Clair and the Lunes maybe;). BJ is gonna FOR SURE sing with me too. Think Keely Smith and Louis Prima to the max. But it will be MY BAND. And there WILL be a piano. And I WILL be singing on top of it at times. OH YES.

And that is the happy thought making me smile this morning. Maybe in a few years, maybe next year I am gonna sing with my very own band.  And sometimes I will break out into some bluesy number whilst perched on top of the piano. 

QUESTION: Do you have a super fun dream to dream about today?:) Happy Friday!!!